Despite evidence to the contrary, I have high expectations for myself, as I'm sure most everyone does. The difference, I feel, is that most people get distracted by what they love to do-- drinking, shopping, etc.-- while I hate my distractions. I actively try to sabotage my own charmed life, to stir up controversy, maybe, to create an environment where self-pity has a place. I have no idea. But this path of self destruction does not suit my ambitions. How, then, do I alter this mindset? Please let me know, as I have only until January 28 to change the world, and at present I can barely get started. More to come;

Jas Gibert